sweetperfection .

hurmm , mula mula nk ckp thanks for best friends for the suprise party . korang nk tau tk , sbnarnya aku EMO sbb korang smua tkde kt sni . skali waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh i had a suprise party wooooo . bestt tp part tk bestnyaa , yg tktau psal suprise tu , bebel bebel kt aku plak -.- ape ape ape ? aku tk brslah kali ni okay ? hooooooooohhh sronoknyaaa :D

psal birthday to let go lah , mlas nk story sgt . crita psal arini . iqbl ckp dye nk bg gift tp kne pg mntkb amek , igt boleh lah . tp smpai ptang tkde transport . trpksalah cncel . huahhh . around 5 tu , ade sekor mmat ni dtg dgn kreta fuhhhh smgt kreta baru ^^ alang alang kn , bwklah kreta dye . cett sbb enjin dye turbo , so aku mcm adelah part part trkjut skit kn . yelah , tkan mnyk skit je dah mngaum mcm apa , heishhhh . lau trkjut tkpe , tp dah smpai mnjerit jerit dah fuhhh mntp ((: trima kaseh yaa , sy puas .

wwwwwwwwwwweeee mlam kamal bg kek dr SR . oh my , lme tk mkan . sronok tau . thank you ! hahahahaha smua jeles . bia ahhh alahhh . ari ari aku on9 smpai 4 5 pg , bgun pkul 2 3 ptg . bgus tk ? heh mlas nk ckp dah , bye (:

i'maverybadinfluence ,

write yes if you do , write no if you don't , count how many yes and see the result ((:

1. smoked. - no -
2. consumed alcohol. - no -
3. slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex. - no -
4. slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex. - yes -
5. kissed someone of the same sex. - no -
6. had sex. - no -
7. had someone in your room other than family. - yes -
8. watched porn. - no -
9. bought porn. -no -
10. tried drugs. - no -
TOTAL: 2

1. taken painkillers . - yes -
2. taken someone else’s prescription medicine . - no -
3. lied to your parents. - yes -
4. lied to a friend. - yes -
5. snuck out of the house. - yes -
6. done something illegal. - yesss -
7. felt hurt. - yes -
8. hurt someone. - yes -
9. wished someone to die. - yes -
10. seen someone die. - yes -
TOTAL so far: 11

1. missed curfew. - yes -
2. stayed out all night. - yes -
3. eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself. - no -
4. been to a therapist. - no -
5. been to rehab . - no -
6. dyed your hair. - no -
7. received a ticket. - yes -
8. been in an accident. - no -
9. been to a club. - no -
10. been to a bar . - no -
TOTAL so far: 14

1. been to a wild party. - no -
2. been to a Mardi Gras parade. - no -
3. drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night. - no -
4. had a spring break in Florida. - no -
5. sniffed anything . - yes -
6. wore black nail polish . - yes -
7. wore arm bands. - yes -
8. wore t-shirts with band names. - yes -
9. listened to rap. - yes -
10. owned a 50 Cent CD. - no -
TOTAL so far: 19

1. dressed gothic. - no -
2. dressed girly. - yes -
3. dressed punk. - no -
4. dressed grunge. - no -
5. stole something. - yes -
6. been too drunk to remember anything. - no -
7. blacked out. - yes -
8. fainted. - yes -
9. had a crush on a neighbor. - no -
TOTAL so far: 23

1. had a crush on a friend. - yes -
2. been to a concert. - yes -
3. dry-humped someone. - no -
4. been called a slut. - yes -
5. called someone a slut. - yes -
6. installed speakers in your car. - no -
7. broken a mirror. - yes -
8. showered at someone of the opposites sex’s house . - no -
9. brushed your teeth with someone else’s toothbrush. - yes -
TOTAL so far: 29

1. consider/considered Ludacris your favorite rapper. - no -
2. seen an R-rated movie in theater. - no -
3. cruised the mall. - yes -
4. skipped school. - yes -
5. had surgery. - yes -
6. had an injury. - yes -
7. gone to court. - no -
8. walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping. - no -
9. caught something on fire. - yes -
10. lied about your age. - no -
TOTAL so far : 34

1. owned/rented an apartment/house. - no -
2. broke the law in the police’s presence. - no -
3. made out with someone who had a gf/bf . - no -
4. got in trouble with the police. - no -
5. talked to a stranger. - yes -
6. hugged a stranger. - no -
7. kissed a stranger. - no -
8. rode in a car with a stranger . - no -
9. been harassed . - yes -
10. been verbally harassed . - yes -
TOTAL so far: 37

1. met face-to-face with someone you met online. - yes -
2. stayed online for 5 hours straight. - yes -
3. talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight. - yes -
4. watched TV for 5 hours straight. - yes -
5. been to a fair. - yes -
6. been called a bad influence. - yes -
7. drank and driven. - no -
8. prank-called someone. - yes -
9. laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex. - yes -
10. cheated on a test. - yes -
TOTAL so far: 46

Grand Total: 46

If you have less than 10, write “I’m a goody-goody”
If you have more than 10, write “I’m still a goody goody”
If you have more than 20, write “I’m average”
If you have more than 30, write “I’m a bad kid”
If you have more than 40, write “I’m a very bad influence”
If you have more than 50, write “I’m a horrible person”
If you have more than 60, write “I should be in jail”
If you have more than 70, write “I should be dead

p.s ; told ya , i'm not a good girl -.-

foxandthewolf .

dear you , kau tau tk kau ni mcm gay ? kau sdar tk ? heyyyy malu aku nk ckp kt org spe kau . pfft . igt kau upload gmbr tu smua kau hott lahh ? so ble jmpe aku boleh tnjuk kau hotstuff lahh ? ehh pigidahh . nk buat mke kerek je ? kau ada ipod , aku dah tkde , kne kcoh lah ? nk tyang kt aku ? nk nganjeng ? blahh aku sket pn tk herann . ahhh mkin mnympah aku tgk kau tau ? lau kau ada awek , and kau rse awek kau tu LAWA sgt , smpan jelah dlam enset kau tu , tk pyah nk tyg nk tnjk tnjk . aku tknk tgk pn . sbuk ckp kt aku , awek kau lawa apehal ? nk ckp aku hodoh ? mcm tu ? lau aku hodoh pn ade mslah ngan kau ke ? yahhh kau pndai , dpat pg skolah pndai . so ? ade aku kesah ? emm kau byk pg mlncong ngan kwn kau , then ? WAJIB ke tnjuk aku semua gmbr tu ? hahhh tgkp gmbr ngan prmpuan , upload , tgkp gmbr pkai kot smuaa tu , upload . sbaik kau tk tag . kau tag mmg aku carut jelah kn . emmm , knp bila aku pkai kmja , kau nmpk , kau perli aku ? apa ? aku tk boleh pkai ke ? dah tu , kau pkai kmeja mcm prmpuan pnye taste ape kejadahnyaa ? bju tkdelah lawa mne . nk jgak kepohh . eiiiiii sbar jelah akuu . oh yeahhh , bru aku prasan , loghat kau mne ? hlang dah yaa ? malu nk ckp ke ? alahhh chill lah , buat ape nk malu ? ptutnya bgge , kusut . sumpah aku tk suka tgk kau , sbb tu aku tk ckp dgn kau dohh -.- tk pham ke haa ? isyarat plg baek tu , aku tk pndg kau pn . akk kau pn . sme jgak . memilih . yelah korang kn HOTSTUFF , nk buat mcm mne . mne lyak geng dgn aku . aku kn bdak comot jeeeee . okayy , boleh tk lpas ni , lau kau jmpe aku , tk pyah lah sbuk sbuk crita psal kau , sbb I DON'T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT YOUR LIFE , GET YOUR ASS OFF MY FACE ! ckp jgak dgn sekutu kau tu yaa , lau dpan nk buat baik , blakang nk trcabut mulut ktuk psal aku ngan family aku , tk pyahlah . aku tk pnah trfkir pn psal korang hahhhh korang bkan spe spe pn , okayy ? igt aku heran sgt ke korang buat taik ni ? helooo ini alya lahhh , aku bkan mcm org lain .

p.s ; i'm not a good girl like you think . i am who i am . i'm not anyone else and i don't want to be somebody else . i really don't like FAKE ASS people . if you're wondering why i didn't talk when you're around , it is because you are so annoying . i'll always avoid jerks . please , hate me because i already did it to you . deal with it .

sayitlouder .

sy slalu ,
ada bila adanya dye .
pndg dye .
dduk lme lme dkat dye .
tggu dye .
snyum tgk dye .
malu bila dilihat oleh dye .
suka dye .

kwn sy kta ,
alya , dye ada kt sni .
alya , dye slalu pndg awklah .
alya , dye pn nk dduk lme mcm kita jgak ke ?
alya , dye tggu awk kot .
alya , dye snyum tgk awk lahh .
alya , dye malu bila awk tgk dyelah , dye nmpk sexy .
alya , dye suka awk tu .

sy kta ,
korang ni , MCM MNE MUKA AKU ?
korang ni , biar btol .
korang ni , dye ada hal kot .
korang ni , yelah tu nk tpu sy kn .
korang ni , sriyeslah wehh .
korang ni , mustahil lahh .
korang ni , ade ade je .

sy tau awk akn kta ,
knp dye slalu ada ? semakk .
knp dye slalu pndg sy ? rimas .
knp dye tk blah lg ? tk selesa .
knp dye ni slalu buat lwak bdoh ? klakar gila .
knp dye mcm tu ? malu sy tgk dye .
knp dye mcm igt sy suka dye ke ? eeyyuu tlglah .

sy nk tnya awk ,
awk tau sbb apa sy slalu ada ?
awk tau sbb apa sy slalu pndg ?
awk tau sbb apa sy dduk lme lme ?
awk tau sbb apa sy slalu snyum tgk awk ?
awk tau sbb apa sy malu bila awk tgk sy ?
awk tau sbb apa sy suka awk ?

sy akn tlg awk jwb ,
sbb awk slalu ada .
sbb awk mnarik .
sbb awk pn dduk situ lme lme .
sbb awk snyum , sexy .
sbb awk pndg sy .
sbb awk btul btul buat sy jtuh cnta .

kwn awk akn kta ,
minah ni , biar betul ?
minah ni , sumpah tk malu .
minah ni , apehal haa ?
minah ni , gila ke ape ?

awk akn jwb ,
dye sihat je .
dye okay je .
dye cool je .
dye wras je .

sy akn tnya awk ,
knp awk ckp mcm tu ?

awk pn akn jwb ,
sy slalu dtg sni sbb sy tau awk slalu ada kt sni .
sy slalu pndg awk sbb wjah awk tngkn sy .
sy dduk lme lme kt sni sbb sy tggu awk .
sy snyum tgk awk sbb sy gmbira bila awk tgk sy .
sy malu bila awk tgk sy sbb sy tknk awk nmpk sy snyum .
sy sukakn awk sbb awk buat sy sntiasa ignkn awk .
dan sy ckp mcm tu sbb sy tk suka org mmprkcilkan awk .

OHH MY GOD , THIS IS SUCH A FAIRYTALE ! BERANGAN JE LBIH . tapi , , , ,
SAYA MEMANG SUKAKAN AWAK !

welcometotheacademy .

actually i've done this stuff before but i can't find the post -.- and i did it again because i read eja's blog and find it's interesting to do it again hahahahahahaha what the fuck are you saying about , damnshit ? huhhhhhhhhhhhh why i speak english ? because i'm so stress right now ( ada kaitan kaa ? ) sje gdik bohhh (:

INSTRUCTIONS :
a. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
b. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
c. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN, NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
d. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
e. Put this on your blog.

1. If someone says, "Is this okay?"
charades by STEPHEN JERZAK ( weeeee apekejadahnyeee ? )

2. How would you describe yourself?
monster by LADY GAGA ( hahahaha, btol sgt lah ni )

3.What do you like in a guy/girl?
i love you and goodbye by BRING ME THE HORIZON ( OKAYY aku dah nmpk awkwardnyaaa )

4. How do you feel today?
we'll be alright by TRAVIE MCCOY

5. What is your life's purpose?
darling by EYES SET TO KILL ( aku mmg ske melencong jauh dr soalan )

6. What is your motto?
harmony by NEVERSHOUTNEVER ( auwww i likeee )

7. What do your friends think of you?
tercipta untukku by UNGU ( klau betul syukur sgt dahh )

8. What do you think of your parents?
maafkanku by 6IXTH SENSE ( oh apakah mknanya ini )

9. What do you think about very often?
lovers love liars lie by NEVERSHOUTNEVER ( walawwehhhhh )

10. What is 2+2?
closer to the edge by 3O SECONDS TO MARS ( yeahhhh aku dpat A+++ )

11. What do you think of your best friends?
leave me alone by THE VERONICAS ( aku tktau yaa aku next je kua lgu ni sorry )

12. What do you think of the person you like?
all those night by CHASE COY ( uuuuu wth )

13. What is your life?
shake that bubble by YOUNG AND DIVINE ( hahahahahaha buuuu )

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?
rawrrr by BRING ME THE HORIZON ( aku tau tkde kaitan )

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
your guardian angel by THE RED JUMPSUIT APPARATUS ( bgus btol )

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?
she said by STEPHEN JERZAK ft LEIGHTON MEESTER ( bodohhnyaaaaaa )

17. What will they play at your funeral?
selamat malam by FAIZAL TAHIR ( aduhhh , deyy bca yassin lahhh )

18. What is your hobby/interest?
you and me by BUNKFACE ( haaahhh give uppp )

19. What is your biggest fear?
chelsea smile by BRING ME THE HORIZON ( hahahahahahahaha ade aku kesahh )

20. What is your biggest secret?
titanic theme song ( techno ) by DJ MANGOO ( kepala hotakk luuuuuu ! )

21. What do you think of your friends?
who's to say by CHASE COY ( hu uhh )

22. What will you post this as?
welcome to the academy by YOUR NAME IN VAIN ( knp knp knp ? )

what ? follow the instruction .

p.s ; you have a very fuckable personality , pornstar .

taksubdengankatakata .

lelaki , semalam kau kata kau benci dia , kenapa hari ini aku nampak kau dengan dia ? sebab kau buta .
semalam kau kata kau tak suka dia , kenapa hari ini aku nampak kau ketawa dengan dia ? sebab kau hipokrit .
semalam kau kata kau sakit hati tengok dia , kenapa hari ini di mana ada kau di situ ada dia ? sebab kau bodoh .
kau buta sebab depan dia , kau tewas dengan kata kata dustanya . kau hipokrit sebab selama ini kau lah orang yang paling banyak berkata kata buruk tentang dia . kau bodoh sebab memperbodohkan diri sendiri . kawan jenis apa kau ini ? tidak hairan lah aku menghiraukan kau di sekolah .

perempuan , kenapa kau berdiri di tengah ? kenapa tidak di tepi ? seperti tembok besar yang menghalang jalan . pandangan kau dan rakan sejati kau . kenapa sinis sekali ? adakah kerana aku tunduk merenung lantai ? aku tunduk tidak bermakna aku tewas . aku tunduk tidak bermakna aku takut . aku tunduk kerana kau adalah orang yang paling aku tidak mahu lihat dalam sehari . aku tunduk kerana muka kau yang selayaknya tidak dipandang . tidakkah kau tau hati ku mencarut HARAM JADAH PUKIMAK KAU FUCKKK ! kau hina aku macam sampah di hadapan orang ramai . kau jual cerita tentang aku kepada si pembeli yang setia membeli . apa kau ingat aku tidak boleh balas semula ? boleh sayang , itu perkara mudah . tetapi aku bukanlah kanak-kanak yang sentiasa inginkan kemenangan dengan hasutan . bila kau akan sedar ? bila sudah terlambat ? kau muflis . muflis dengan pengertian sahabat .

budak , tidakkah kau sedar kau disumbat dengan kata kata dusta ? aku cuma menghantar satu pesanan ringkas supaya mendoakan aku . tetapi kenapa kau ingin bermain kata denganku ? ' nk doakn boleh, tp don't be a faker , nobody like it ' hoooooooo DO I LOOK LIKE I CARE ? cakap pn tk btol . yeahh aku pastinya tidak mendiamkan diri . aku memberi maklum balas , ' thank you . ( lupa ) fyi , each person you meet is fake . they will always talk shit and be a piece of shit . and all the haters make me be strong motherfucker , thanks again ' . hahh 3 kali kau balas ' what da ' . apa ? kau ketandusan kata kata ? bukankah kau seorang yang hebat berkata kata dan juga TALAM DUA MUKA ? nampaknya tidak lagi .

internet , baru hari ini aku meletakkan jari aku di atas papan kekunci setelah sebulan melarikan diri , kenapa kau menyakiti hati aku ? aku bersabar lagi . kerana mungkin aku yang salah . nampaknya tiada apa yang menarik hari ini .

perang , aku tanya kau bilakah kau akan berakhir ? perang jawab , nanti sabarlah perjuangan ini belum habis . aku tanya perang , bilakah kau akan pergi ? perang balas , nanti sabarlah sikit hari lagi aku akan pergi dan aku akan kembali . aku tanya perang lagi , bila kau akan memberikan kemerdekaan kepada kami ? perang jawab lagi , nanti sabarlah aku janji aku akan memberikan kamu semua kemerdekaan . aku tidak puas hati . aku tanya perang sekali lagi , boleh kau bagitahu aku bila kau akan tinggalkan kami ? perang jawab , nanti sabarlah . pelik , kenapa itu sahaja dibalas perang ? aku inginkan kepastian , lantas aku bertanya lagi . perang oh perang , kau kelihatan aneh , kenapa ? perang balas , tiada apa . aku tanya , salah akukah perang ? perang jawab , tidak . kalau bukan kenapa kau berubah ? salahkah soalan aku ? dengan tenang perang jawab , tidak kau tidak melakukan salah , cuma aku . aku kemukakan soalan , kenapa dengan kau perang ? perang kata , aku tidak sanggup untuk memberitahu kau . aku kehairanan . aku tanya , apakah ini perang ? aku tidak mampu untuk memahami kata kata kau , boleh kau terangkan hal sebenar ? perang jawab , maafkan aku kerana aku tidak boleh dan tidak akan pernah meninggalkan kamu semua kerana aku wajib berada di mana mana .

kau , kenapa begini jadinya ? kau kata kau sayang aku . kau kata kau cinta aku . kau kata kau inginkan aku . kau kata kau perlukan aku . kau kata aku segalanya . tetapi kenapa perbuatan kau tidak menggambarkan apa yang diperkatakan ? kenapa kau membiarkan aku berkata kata keseorangan ? kenapa aku terasa aku dipermainkan ? adakah benar ? adakah aku yang bersalah ? adakah aku membuat kesalahan ? adakah aku yang menjadi pemusnah ? tidak . itu kau . kau yang tidak pernah fikirkan aku . kau yang sering abaikan aku . kau yang buat aku begini . kau yang buat aku berubah . kau yang membuat aku sakit . semua kau . sedarkah kau sayang ? bila aku gembira , kenapa kau seolah olah tidak suka ? aku cuma mahu berkongsi . bila aku menghidapi penyakit teruja yang melampau , kenapa diriku diabaikan ? aku cuma mahukan kau di sisi . bila aku sedih , kenapa kau tidak pelik malah berpura pura tidak tahu ? aku cuma mahu kau pujuk aku . bila aku marah , kenapa kau tidak bertanya kenapa apatah lagi mahu memujuk ? aku cuma mahu kau faham aku . bila aku luahkan apa aku rasa , kenapa kau buat bodoh ? aku cuma mahu kau berdebat denganku . bila aku kata salah kau , kenapa kau tidak hairan sedangkan kau tahu itu benar ? aku cuma mahu kau ucap kata maaf .

p.s ; imma bad girl , so bad bad bad BITCH .

lastday ):

sumpah sdih gila , arini last day blaja kot ? emmmmmmmmmmm . td mjlis halal ilmu . aku byk buat dosa ngan ckgu kn , sebak sket lahhh . adegan mntk maaf tu tk ptut dirakam . and for sure , kne buli dgn ckgu sokhih -.- mnyampah i . ayt ckgu :

sir hasrizal : buat elok elok mse exm , buat elok elok mse essay bi ( auwww ensemmm , cett laki org tu alyaa ! )

ckgu sokhih : hahh krim slam kt awie ( bpak aku -.- ) heishhhh awk ni tk tggi tggi , lyak ke jwb spm ni ? ptut adk tu haa yg lyak pot pet pot pet ( ckp kuat kuat , 1 dwan dga , aku mcm biasa ah gelakkk je , dah lah ustz rhmn pn adaaa damnshit tk suka )

ckgu manisah ( my fav ) : haa ni , blaja rjin rjin sket , buat elok elok , jgn fkir nk cpat abes jeeeeee ( tk igt dahh )

ustzah suhaila : haa alya , buat elok elok , sungguh sungguh sket , jgn nkal nkal , kurangkn sket nkalnya tu

tchr azean : sy tk tau nk kte ape , tp do your best okay ? nnti mnyesal , tchr doakn yg trbaik

ckgu azni : ( aku yg briya mntk maaf sbb slalu buat hal dlm klas dye ) sy halalkn smua , jge prangai tu sket nnti . bila kluar skolah tau ? jwb elok elok , sejarah pstikn skor A .

waaaaa aku tk igt sgt pn ckgu ckp ape , tp smuanyaa lbih krang jeeeelah . poyo jekn . hahhhhhhhhhhh td briya lah mntk maaf ngan bff kn ( hahaha tk prcya i ckp bff ? ) then bdak bdak india and cina dtg mntk maaf . hebat , 1 malaysia . then , ktorg pg mntk maaf kt set set iman plakkkk ( kcuali ain and nora ) hahah rndu gila kt skolah nnti , kt bdak bdaknyaaa (: especially my coolest classmates except those bitches ( sorry guys i don't like any of you , and you don't like me too ) heeee ((:

i main dslr naddy , sronok . sy nk beli . heh spe yg belikn , mmg bestt lah , bpak sygnya kt dye nnti . taun dpan keje ngan BABA , masyukkkk ! ( tbe tbe ) auwwww , i want canon dslr . hafiz , belikn 1 boleh ? hahaha tk malu :O

knp aku ltak byk krungan ni ? seeeweeelll !

p.s ; i know you guys will keep talking about me , it never had a fullstop and i don't give a fuck about that . i'm sorry , dumbass . you make me be a strong motherfucker ((: thank you

leavemealone .

knp smua org pkai DSLR ni ? damn jealous okayyy ! eishhh tkde spe spe nk belikn tuk aku ke ? nk keje lmbt lg lah plakkk . nk nk nk nk nk ! ahhhhhhh -.-

wishthedreamscometrue .

10 DECEMBER , 10 WISHES .

1. CANON EOS 550D . i want this so badly .

2. clothes 3. freedom (:

4. birthday party .

5. my boyfriend was there with me on that date .

6. momiji doll (:7. BMTH albums wuuuuuuu8. new haircut

9. hadiah hadiah hadiah hadiah hadiah :D

10. love -.-

idon'tgiveashit .

alahh , smlam lepak lpak kt tsik , dduk kt mnara rmai rmai . tbe tbe weeeee ada ZZZ -.- kt seberang . i nmpk dlu sbb i knal topi dyee . diorg ni pg jerit plak nme mmat tu dammmn . tk lme lpas tu , dye blah dr situ . igt blah trus . skali dye naik ats kt mnara tu , ehhhhhhh sdap je . lpas my baby boo dtg kn , igt nk sruh dye naik tp dah ZZZ tu ada , tk jd . emm . mse nk trun tu , dye ckp , ' alya smbong mcm kuda ' hahahahaha ape ayt tah , i pn slamber jwb , 'awklah smbong ' . pstu trun dgn lju . tgh tgh jlan , jmpe bie ((:

kt library , tbe tbe adk ain mncul . nora kte ade org mntk no aku . tnye ain rpenye si TUTTT . shit lah . nk mnde lg . tk pham aku |:

jmpe bie ehemm pkai bju htam . ensem . sbb dye dtg lmbt , so sy dah msuk air dgn kwn kwn . mse dgn dye , pnyelah cntrol je , tp trlpas jgakkk . dahlah PERVERT , eyyuu . PERAGUT , PENCURI . hahhhh smua dye ((: sorrylah lau prangai koi tk semegah mne , tk sehebat mne , tk seayu mne . itulah dri koi yg sbnarnyaaa . btw , tk pham knp awk jeles ??

hah smua psal laki . tkde pn prmpuan . sbb lau crite yg prmpuan ni smpai sdah tk settle . BABA , kau hutang aku sejarah ! kte nk ajr smlam , tipuuuuu !

p.s ; our memories never fade away , it will be here , in my mind , forever .

whenilookatyou .

Syed Fuad Syed Putra ,
If the road ahead is not so easy ,
Our love will lead the way for us ,
Like a guiding star ,
I'll be there for you if you should need me ,
You don't have to change a thing ,
I love you just the way you are ,
So come with me and share the view ,
I'll help you see forever too ,
Hold me now , touch me now ,
I don't want to live without you ,
I love you and i will always do .

p.s ; bie , this is for you . i know it wasn't so beautiful but i kind of like it . i try to tell you that , even the words can't tell how much i love you . you're the only one i want fullstop

iamanerdandweirdo .

1. This survey gets a little personal can you handle it? yeah why not (:
2. If you married the last person you texted, what would your last name be? still Zawawi but i think i will be Mrs.Fuad (:
3. Were you happy when you woke up today? not really
4. Have you talked to a complete jerk today? not yet
5. What’s a fact about the last person who texted you? he was so amazing and i love him
6. Want someone back in your life? no ?
7. What are you excited for? hang out with him
8. What were you doing yesterday? reading book

9. Honestly, who was the last person to tell you that they love you? Syed Fuad
10. What’s the last thing you put in your mouth? i can't remember
11. Are you scared to fall in love? yes .
12. Do you think teenagers can be in love? yeah why not ?
13. Last person you wanted to punch in the face? my little sister
14. What time is it right this second? 9.35 pm
15. Is it easy to make you cry? yesssssssss
16. Do you find it hard to trust others? yesss double double yesss
17. Do you care too much/not at all/just enough? simple enough (:
18. How fast does your mood change? as fast as i can .
19. Do you tell people your ok when your really not? no D:
20. Is there someone you wish you could fix things with? absolutely
21. Have you ever worn the opposite sex’s clothing? err ?
22. When is your next road trip? i don't know
23. Do you have someone of the opposite gender you can tell everything to? emmmm ? kim ?
24. What would happen if you had a baby with the last person you kissed? kill me !
25. Is your hair curly or straight? straight
26. What are you doing tomorrow? eat

27. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having? i'm bored cause i had nothing to do
28. Have you ever in any way, been betrayed by someone you trust? yes ):
29. How late did you stay up last night and why? i don't know but i do remember the night i didn't sleep at all because i'm busy texting my love (:
30. Are you picky about who you give your number to? yes , because i really don't like stranger -.-
31. What do you prefer: Pizza Hut or Domino’s? both , but i seldom eat those crap so both is okay (:
32. Have you ever gotten a teddy bear from a girlfriend/boyfriend? yes , a long time ago and she was missing . i want a new one ^^ bieeee ? can i ?
33. Would you rather go to Greece or Hawaii? hawaii ?
34. What is wrong with you right now? i miss him too much much much and i'm stressed because of the fucking exam .
35. Who is the last person that made you laugh? my shed , my baba , my bunbun and my jangjang ( my girlfriends )
36. Are you going through any pain at the moment? nope ,

37. What did you do this night? answer these weird question .
38. What are you doing tonight? study and have a conversation with him perhaps .
39. Who was the last person to look at you like you were crazy? the girl with a spectacles in my class , weirdo ?
40. Do you hate the last guy/girl you had a thing with? wtf ?
41. Who was the last person you cried in front of ? my baby brother , nazrien ( oh my , now i realize how much i miss him )
42. Did the one person who hurt you the most in your life apologize? yeah , kind of
43. Do you think that you’re a good person? no , imma very bad bad bad bitch (:
44. Have you held hands with anyone today? not today :D
45. Have you ever thought about getting your lip pierced? yes , every moment but i don't think that my parents let me do it .
46. Have a best friend? yes , dummy .
47. Have you had 3 boyfriends/girlfriends at the same time? yes . before i met him (: now , he's all i want .
48. Do you have any plans for the weekend? no ):
49. For the rest of the week? maybe
50. Are you in a good mood right now? i don't know
51. Are you on medication for anything? yes and i hate to eat them .
52. What made you upset today? Physics .
53. Have you ever liked someone older than you? all my boyfie are older than me except one ( the most i regret to be with )
54. Do you think relationships are ever really worth it? as long as we're happy and enjoy the moment together ?
55. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 3 months? yes , i want it to be years baby :D
56. Do you have any scars? yeah , big one D:
57. Have you ever donated blood? nope , because i am a vampire
58. Do you eat breakfast daily? no , i don't eat breakfast . don't ever ask me why , i just don't , okay .
59. Have you ever been to SeaWorld? we have it here ?? in malaysia ? i never heard ? blaaahh loser .
60. What’s your favorite animal? tiger , aummmm (:
61. Do you enjoy watching football? yeah but only from the tv , for real i love futsal (:
62. Are you afraid of the dark? no (: i love it
63. Do you sleep with your door closed or open? closed .
64. Do you like hugs? yes but only from people i really love .
65. Could you go out in public looking like you do now? noooooo !
66. Does seeing old couples in love make you mad? not at all , i like to see them , sometimes .
67. Are you tired? always and sick of all this .
68. Are you okay with embarrassment? yesss , hahaha :D
69. Are you waiting for something? no ?
70. Do you ignore people when you’re mad/ upset? yess , i will not talk to them .
71. Do you get stressed out easily? yes especially when exam is just around the corner .
72. Can you hula hoop? you can call me loser cause i don't understand what is hula hoop , it is a friend of jump ?
74. Is it easier to forgive or forget? easy to forgive but hard to forget .
75. Can a boy and girl be friends without having feelings for each other? i don't see any problems about that .

p.s ; you can do like i do (: this is what i call when-i-get-bored-quiz .

coffeeandcigarette .

erhh lme gila tk update blog . wa busy lah beb busyyy ! uh myy , i am superb . study study -.- tp asyk lah buat addmth tk sdah sdah , addict . yg lain pndg je , mlas wooo especially sej , eeeyyy tk sukaa .

first , sy tk rndu awk ya cik adk , awk dah tkde dlm kmus hdup sy , TIDAK ADA ! hahahahahahaha ( gelak angkuh ) aku mmg jhat , kau pn tau kn ? lau iktkn sy tkkn maafkn awk . em ? sy ni kras kpala , jgn harap sy nk heran . walawehhhhh grang nyaa rawrrrrr tkut tk tkut tk ? tkut lahh . heh , sy tk ksah lah awk tk suka sy , sbb sy dah tk suka awk sgt punnn . sy tk ksah sy tk ksah sy tk ksah . eh knp sy tlis psal awk ni ? semakk jelah . buang msa taip . tkpe ni last kot .

well , i'm having fun with my girlfriends lately (: buat lwak bodoh ktwa mcm apa je . see ? we don't have any problems with you guys , motherfucker . tk heran pn lu org tknk kwn ktorg buuuuuu . hahahahaha sy gila yay yay yay gilaaaa . brgurau tnpa btsan , yeahh smua org ckp , sy bkan gadis yg sopan . wtf ? do i care ? no lahh , i jd dri i sndri , knp nk pura pura ? point ? tkde kn ? i mgkn annoyed smtimes tp itu normal . i mnusia jgak , mcm you all . hahh moody sket .

em , tk tau nk tulis ape dah . oh my Gucci ! spm dah nk dkat . ni last post sblum spm habis ( btol ke ayt aku ni ? ) sumpah aku rsa bosan gila lately , stress . tkpe , i'm better bila tgh syed ali ahhhhhhhh i loveeee himmmm . muahhhhhhh . aku ni mmg obses dgn kturunan syed kot -.- dammmmmnnn .

hahhh bdak bdak skolah rndah sbuk nk buat reunion , dammn dlm rmai rmai tu aku je yg tk brtdung haha aku mmg rockers . cool jelah , tk heran kot . rndu diorg . kt fb pn gdoh sje , agknya mse jmpe tu mcm mna lah eh . tk tau lah , ggar tmpat tu nnti . eh tk sbarrr .

SYED FUAD SYED PUTRA , my heart beats for only you .

benten.

TEN ARE YOU’S

1. Are you single - No .
2. Are you happy - Yeah err sometimes ? Depends .
3. Are you bored - Right now ? Yeahhh that's why i do this crap .
4. Are you naked - Yes i am, under my clothes :P
5. Are you a blonde - nope , i wish i am .
6. Are you moody - Not now (:
7. Are you a lover/hater - Both , i think emm
8. Are you hot/cold - I would love to be both , can i ?
9. Are you Irish - No .
10. Are you Asian - Yes , no doubt -.-

TEN FACTS
1. Name – NAFMZ (:
2. Nickname – Alya
3. Any birth marks - My mom said i had birth mark on my knee but now , last time i check , there was nothing on my knee .
4. Hair color – black ,
5. Natural hair color - black again , never change the original one .
6. Eye color - Brown or black err i don't know .
7. Height - errr secret syhhhhh
8. Mood - i think imma happy go lucky ? hahhh but i do love to smileeee .
9. Favorite colour - Black , White , Red , Brown and Green (:
10. One Place You Want to Visit - Canada ! omg , i don't know why i love it so much . don't ask .

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE
1. Do you believe in love at first sight - Maybe .
2. Do you believe in soul mates - Yess , i want to have one . wait , i think i have one right now (:
4. Have you ever been hurt emotionally - yeah , too many times . i hate it .
5. Have you ever broke someone’s heart? - i want to answer no but the truth is yes .
6. Ever had your heart broken? - it was a lie if i said no -.-
7. Have you ever liked someone but never told them? - yeah , i keep the secret for years . he's my brother's friend and i don't think i still like him .
8. Are you afraid of commitment? - Nope .
9. Who was the last person you hugged? - emmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm .
10. Who was the last person you said I love you too? - my boyfriend lahh ,

TEN THIS OR THAT
1. Love or lust - Love
3. Cats or dogs - Cats ( addicted )
4. A few best friends or many regular friends - A few best friends but I do have a lot of regular friends as well .
5. Television or internet - Internet , welcome to reality !
6. Chinese Or Indian - aummmmmmmm Chinese .
7. Wild night out or romantic night in - Romantic , uhhh my , i don't believe i said that .
8. Money or Happiness - Happiness ! and money (:
9. Night or day - Night .
10. Msn or phone - Phone ?

TEN HAVE YOU EVER
1. Been caught sneaking out - Nope .
2. Been skinny dipping - No .
3. Bungee jumped - No again .
4. Finished an entire jaw breaker -Yes ? hahaha horror !
5. Lied to someone you liked - emmm have i ? i think . em i think a lot to answer all the questions right ? ah weirdo .
6. Wanted an ex bf/gf back - yes , before i met him , thanks hunn , you've changed everything .
8. Cried yourself to sleep? - yes ,
9. Cried because you lost a pet - emm not yet ?
10. Wanted to disappear - hahaha always .

TEN PREFERENCES IN A PARTNER
1. Smile or eyes - eyes (:
2. Light or dark hair - dark
3. Hugs or kisses - both .
4. Shorter or taller – taller cause i am short .
5. Intelligence or attraction - both , thank you .
6. Romantic or spontaneous - both
7. Funny or serious - funny of course , serious is awkward .
8. Older or Younger - older , younger is eeeyyuu .
9. Outgoing or quiet - outgoing
10. Sweet or Bad Ass – not too sweet and not too bad .

TEN HAVE YOU’S
1. Ever performed in front of a large crowd - when i was a kid , yes .
2. Ever done drugs - no and never .
3. Ever consumed alcohol - fucking no !
5. Ever been on a cheerleading team - eeeyuuu nope !
6. Ever Been on a dance team - no no no no and no .
7. Ever been on a sports team - before this , yes .
8. Ever been in a drama play/production - yes , i regret it .
9. Ever owned a BMW, Mercedes Benz, Escalade, Hummer or Bentley?- no , i wish i owned a BMW .
10. Ever been in a rap video? - hehh no -.- i want to be in BMTH video , like CHELSEA SMILE ? cool !

TEN LASTS
1. Last phone call you made - Boyfie , Fuad .
2. Last person you hung out with - Shed , Ain , Watie , Elya and Pjan ?
4. Last time you worked - i don't remember .
5. Last person you tackled - My sister .
6. Last person you IM’d - emmm , i don't remember , too many ? wait , i think Kim and Ayin .
8. Last person(s) you went to the movies with - Sisters .
9. Last thing you missed - My one and only brother (:
10. Last thing you ate - biscuits .

LAST PERSON TO
1. Sleep beside you? - sister .
2. See you cry? -my friends (:
3. You went out to dinner with? - my family ?
5. You talked on the phone to? - always be my bf (:
7. Made you laugh? - everyone !

p.s ; i'm losing my fucking mind , dude .

hatersmakemefamous .

first of all nk bgtau , i like dye pnya ksut ( gmbar ) .

mcm mcm brlaku arini . hahahahaha sengal tah ape ape , byk glak je . tah ape nk jd ni , ckgu ckp jgn byk glak nnti ilmu kluar haaaaaa ptutlah sy ni tk pndai pndai . kte tgk ape yg brlaku

shed tkde , skolah bosan . yelahh dye tu geng ngan wa lahh byk ckp . dye tkde wa nk ckp dgn spe mehh ? ain ? heeh mkcik tu tdo je keje . watie ? ehh mnah novel tu , lau dah ada novel snyi spi lah , lau tkde bru boleh ajk borak . elya ? dua kali limaaaa . yg lain tu em wa tk mnat lah nk borak ngan lu . bosan -.- shed pg prpustakaan sbb ade program -.- knp kau pg , knp knp knp ? eishh dah sorang sorang

tk tau nk borak dgn spe . kcau moniesha , perang perang . haha sy mmg ske kcau dye ni . pngawas yg hnya pda bju shja . cett baik tk yah jd pngawas . pembuli . dr pg , bku rjukan chemist ats meja , selak lah sket sket , tah ape dpat tah . skumpulan plajar lelaki kt sblah borak psal bolaa . amboihh syoknya abg abg skalian . smgat skali critaaa . tah ape ape tah .

kne pkul dgn pali , kne buli dgn pjan . mgkuk 2 ekor ni , lau tk kcau sehari tk sahh . pali pkul sy pkai pmbaris pnjg . mle mle tk sket , mkin mkin lme mkin sket lah sbb dye KUAT kn lg ayunan dye . tk guna pali . pjan plak , blek dr lab , dye bru prasan pncil box dye hlang . melilau cr . haaaa tau pn bak kta pornstar , ' pjan , Allah nk tnjuk skjap je skang ' . ape mksd nyee ? truskn mmbaca . ehh tk cte lg pjan buli ape kn ? dye igt sy yg curi bkas pnsil dye . mke suci ni mne buat keje jhat tu . dye ckik sy pstu buat ala ala nk tmbak kt kpale dr blakang . bpak kuat nye , senget senget tdung waaa . bullshit . tau tau imran yg amek , pstu buat tk tau plak . kau sje je kn pjan , cr psal .

watie histeria . mse naik tgge , pjan trik tudung dye . hahahaha mnjerit bpak kuatnyaa mcm org kne rsuk . wa ngan elya kt blakang dah buat mke cuak pstu glak . sbb lwak kn . kau ni watie , smpat lg buat lwak . lain kali jgn lalu dkat pjan tu , kn dah kenaaa . bestt ? hehe (: sbb tu lah dye kte kt pjan tuhan nk tnjuk skjp je -.-

pmbaris ptah . tgh main bengkok bengkok pmbaris pnjg yg lmbik tu kn kn kn , tbe tbe pmbaris tu ptah . ahh alang alang , ptah kn byk byk . pornstar tu sbuk nk ikt . eee tk malu buuuu . buat mke slamber pg mrah moniesha , ' moniesha , awk lah ni , tgk . sy pnye mrah kt awk . tu yg smpai ptah pmbaris sy ni , awk mmg gila lah . ' :D

tido . haha knon knon msj bie nk mndi , pdhal tgh sdap lyan edward main piano trus trlelap . hahaha dah bgn tu bru bgtau dye ^^ slamber je ((: mmg aku ske abeskn mse atas ktil . tdo , dga lgu , bca bku , buat nota , smua lah ats ktil . sbb tu ktil wa tk pnah kmas errrr alamak TERmengaku plak .

sbuk usha gmbr cam gigandet . dah lme ske dye , tp tk tau nme dye ape hahaha loserrr buu . along bgtau td . trus ushaaa . ape igt aku gtal sgt ke asyk usha dye haa ? nk plak gmbr dye tk pkai bju aummmm :D haha smbil smbil tu aku busy dwnload soalan addmth ngeri lain , ckgu nizam nk . tkpe , demi rakan rakan . tipuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu !

berubah . yess , sy dpat rsekn sy dah jd org lain . tkpe tkpe , sy cbe cr dri sy prlahan lahan (: jgn rsau syg , esk awk akn jmpe sy , the real one . eittt esk nk jmpe heartbeat uuyehh uuyehhh excited . sukanya bila dia ceria . knp aku rse aku mcm bakal msuk air haa esk ? tlg lah jgn tlg lahhh , tk mau tk mau . malu lah i nnti -.-

berita dan bujang lapok . haaa tgk sronok lyan bjg lpok , tbe tbe ma pggl sruh tgk brita . accident . myvi rmuk truk . spe tgk brita tau lah , mlas nk story :D emm tgh khusyuk tgk brita , akk pggl plak sbb bjg lapok part bestt , brlari lah ke sne . pstu nk tau lg psal brita , lari kt ma blek . heeh pnat tau .

dah tk tau nk crita apa , bye . SFSP , i miss you (:

p.s ; your words don't mean shit to me , newbie .

connectthedot .

aumm tk tau nk tulis ape . first nk ckp psal si penabur fitnah , sy tk hasut kwn awk tu . sy mgkin sosial tp sy tk pnah hsut org spya JADI MACAM SAYA . heh . tgk kakak lah . kakak sy pkai tdung , kakak dye adee ? tkde mehh -.- diam diam sdahlah , tk tau pgkal crita tk pyah mnyibukkn bntot okay ? semakk tk muat . eyyppp ckp lg ccuk hdung . syhhhh sy tk ggu awk and sy tk ckp dah psal awk , jd sy rs tk prlulah hal sy crita sy di hebohkn kpd yg lain yaaa . awk bukan wrtwn .

crita lainnnn , hahh ade org tgur sy , blog sy smkin jwg . iyaa ? hahahahahahahaha sy pnye ske lah -.- bila tk tau nk tlis ape , tlis lah psal bie (: smlm sy ltak lgu lain arini lgu lain knp ya ? sbb sy bru prasan lgu smlm tu tk hbes hahaha bodohh . pornstar , sy tru awk ltak lgu ^^emmmm , sy nk buat pngakuan ni , sy sgt ske bdan lelaki , sgt sgt okay . bkan yg skeping tu eishh tk bestt yg brisi skit skit tuhh aumm nyummmyyy :D plek tp benarrr . sy gramm . tp sumpah sy sukaaaaa aaaahhhhhh sy gilaaaa . sy dan kakak sy mmpnyai prangai yg srupaa . pntg nmpk mmat bdan bestt msti srupppp meleleh hahaha lucah tk lucahh kn . tk baik tau alya , jgn ajr org mnde mnde mcm ni , tk elok .

emm nk crita apa lg eh . td trmnung dlm klas , trfkir sjenakk . mcm mnelah aku nk truskn khdupn aku tnpa bdak bdak nie . eceh aytt tk bleh blahh . snyilah hdup aku nnti . msti rndukn imran yg ske buat mke slamber dan lwak bngok dye tu . mcm pjan jgak , yg tk pnah reti ttup mlut . pali , yg tk pnah brhnti mngusik . em 3 ni jelah plg rndu kot nnti . smggu cuti pn dah rndu ((: bdak prmpuan tk heran sgt sbb bosan lah nk fkir . stkat geng 1 kpala tu boleh sgt lah ajk kua sme . hahaaa ape karut sorang ni , tkde org nk lyan kau lah .

td dah lah kna gastrik . kt skolah . mcm nk mnges guling guling pn ade . tp tk tau lah knp tbah sgt . tknk blek rmah . kebal je tggu smpai pkul 3 . dammn it sakit GILA kot . nk bgun pn trbongkok bongkok . tah ape ape . tp still boleh bsing . tkde bsing mcm org tu . sbb dah nk exm ni , mlas nk briyaa . konon tpu je lbih ni . lme tk brcerita . skali skala sronok jgaaa :D

adk , rnduuuu ! sgt sgt sgt . nk jmpeee . adk lau jmpe org msti mcm mlas je nk ckp kn . kcik ati . tp mmg rndu lah . sgt sgt . nnti lpak sme tau . tk nk ade mamat mamat skeping tu smuaa . tk bestt ^^ knp adk tggi ? knp sy pndek ? knp adk ensem ? knp sy hduh ? knp adk prfect ? knp sy cacat ? knp knp knp ? awk kn adk sy ? adk jga sy , tp sy tk jga adk sgt pn . mse sy sdih , adk slalu ada . mse sy gmbira , adk ada jga . sy syg adk , sgt sgt . sy tk tau mcm mne sy nk hdup tnpa adk . adk baik , smua ttg adk sy ske kcuali 1 , adk trlalu brahsia trmsuk psal gf . heyy budakk , bgtaulah . ssah tau nk gossip -.-

last but not least , msti kne crita psal heartbeat . rsau knp dye tk txt . i know dye busy , tp still rse tk bestt tk txt . org rndu dye , dye buat tk endah je . blek blek aku msj si pnjg tu . mngadu lah smua mnde . nme je dduk asrama pnuh tp prangai ya rabbi truk nk mmpus . eh ni crita org lain ni hehehehe . kdg kdg kn rse nk pg je kt mne bie ade tp tk boleh , trikat dgn skolah . ahh taun dpat free sbntar boleh lah kot . tp adakah aku mndpat keizinannyaa ? bolehkah sy pg brjmpe kamu ? hahhhh ari ari sy anta txt jwg kt awk . tah awk bce tk . msti awk kte sy gila kn . sy mmg mcm tu wekkk . sy syg awk . sy errr , i love you so much . stlah lme mnanti , dpt jga miliki awk . awk jual mhal , mnyampah . org yg plg sy nk jmpe ialah awk dan akn slama lamanya awk (: sy gmbra dpat jmpe awk . tp kte slalu gdoh kn ? alah gdoh mnje . bila gdoh bsar tu , sy tau slah spe . bie , igt tk bila i ckp i ske snakebites tuu ? haa inilah snakebitess , tadaaa

dahh tk tau nk tulis ape dah , lgpn dah pnjg sgt nie . okay , BERHENTI ! zap zap .

p.s ; no matter what happen , you will always be the first in my heart . i believe we were meant to be together . you will always be my hero and i love you , syed fuad bin syed putra .

i'minlove .

knp tbe tbe rse nk tlis psal loveeeee ? ergghh tk tau lah bdak tu still jd stalker or what but sy rse sy dah block dye . lau bc jgak tk tau lah . sy tk kaji psal dye , dye sbuk nk kji psal sy . lntak lah sy tk heran -.- hahahaha tbe gelak . sy nk exm tp msih brmain main dgn blog jga fb jga dot dot dot . haha sbnarnya sy nk post gmbr ni .

sy ske gmbr ni emmm tklah lwa sgt kn . sy yg hodoh dye perfect je (: tp sblum tu sy gdoh dgn dye , ni pn bru nk okay -.- haaaaaaa sy nk tgkp byk lg gmbr dgn awk boleh ? dah nk blek bru nk ckp kn kn kn ? mse ni dah pkul 7 kn . sbb tu kte nmpk htam hahahahahaha tknk mngaku sy htam tk nk tk nk . POYOO !

p.s ; when i said i will never let you go , you have to know how much i mean it , heartbeat .

myheartbeatsforyou .

aritu pg krnival , siang lah . mlam tu tkyah crita lain kali . jlan dgn ain and nora , nmpk kmal ngan faisal ( pdhal dtg sme sme ) diorg tgh khusyuk tgk smethng . uuyehh , pglah usha skali . rpenye ade brother tu buat err tk tau nmenye ape tp dye hias psir dlam btol . mse tu tringat dkt heartbeat so sruh brother tu buatt -.- hahh sy trsgtlah skenye mnde tu smpai tk nk bg kt fuad hahaha bodoh . ari yg sme jgak , we had a little fight . rndu tu rndu tp skit hati tu lg tggi , uh whateverr .

inilah dye (: i really love it .

p.s ; it is more than the truth , robot -.-

thisistoomuch .

am i too emotional lately ? maybe ? emm no , absolutely yes . but why ? i don't know -.-

i wish that you tell me the truth . can you ? it is because i'll believe your lies forever . i'm sick and tired of it . pretend to be okay is not okay . don't ask why because i don't have the answer . i want you to know that :
everything you do will make me smile but sometimes it freaking me out and make me scared .
every word you said make me feel more better but sometimes it is hard for me to believe it .
every time you say you love me and really mean it , i think you are mine but i can't feel your love sometimes .
i got nothing to say .

why you always tell me a story about other girls ? i told you i hate to hear about it and i don't want to . i do feel jealous . did you know sometimes it hurts me ? no , you don't . ahhhhh i really don't want to talk about this anymore . imma human too , i have feelings like you . try to think about it . i'm not your toy . please be aware of my status on fb and my words in this damn blog . you will know me better -.-

p.s ; i try to be cool but actually i am a fool , believer .

it'soverbaby ,

yayy , exm dah abes err blum lg sbnarnya , tggl rekacipta . fuhhhh but who care ? clssmte pn dah brpestaaa ! uuyehh i like it (: sronok gila , eceh ckp mcm dah abes spm je kn . cpat lah 6 disember , i can't wait . heeeee sy ske .

awk , sy rndu abg sy (: hahaha mse sy tgh jwb pper addmth sy tringat abg sy pggl akk sy CHILD sbb mse dduk dlam keta ayh sy buat child lock kt pntu tu . kbtulan my sis dduk situ :D sjak tu abg asyik pggl dye child -.- mlam ry , my brother tu tkde kdt , dye amek kdt sy , yah of course he paid back a day later but i ask him to pay double . he refuse . i keep saying 'rm3' for the whole day (: well , he ignore me . trsnyum snyum aku tringat kt dye hahaha bongoknye tkde org lain ke kau nk rndu , bosan lah asyik asyik abg kau tah ape ape ! ahh sbuk .

heartbeat , i miss you so bad . i can't wait to see you this saturday . i love you winkk ;P so jealous bila my friend bg kad kt boyfie dye , tulis ' happy 3 month anniversary ' . tipuuuu , tk jealous sgt pn . yg jealous ble tgk diorg dating lah . alahaiii , nseb i lah u jauh ): tkpelah u , we will be together soon (: hahahaha jiwang karat plak kn x.x skali skala bkan slalu , yeke ? mcm slalu je . txt me after you read this okay ? i love you so much and i just want you to know , you are the one and only . i do care about you more than anyone else . if saying those 3 words will make you happy , then i will never get bored saying it . thanks for coming into my weird life . i really enjoy the moment with you . i do love you , i do . more than you imagine ((:

p.s ; the thing i miss the most is you , killer .

SFSP (:

I'll be loving you forever ,
Deep inside my heart you'll never leave me ,
Even if you took my heart ,
And tore it apart ,
I would love you still forever .

You are the sun ,
You are my light ,
And you're the last thing on my mind ,
Before I go to sleep at night ,
You're always round ,
When I'm in need ,
When trouble's on my mind ,
You put my soul at ease .

There is no one in this world ,
Who can love me like you do ,
That is the reason that I ,
Wanna spend forever with you .

We've had our fun ,
We've made mistakes ,
But who'd have guessed along that road ,
We'd learn to give and take ,
It's so much more than I could have dreamed ,
Cause you make loving you, so easy for me .

And boy I pray you never leave me ,
Cause this is the world , where lovers often go astray ,
But if we love each other , we won't go that way ,
So put your doubts aside ,
Do what it takes to make it right ,
I love you , forever , no-one can tear us apart .

p.s : i love you , honey bunch . always (:

nothingmore .

5 Famous People to Invite to Your Dream Dinner Party, Dead or Alive:

1. Chase Coy

2. Jared Letto

3. Ed Westwick

4. Oliver Sykes

5. Christopher Drew Ingle ( are you mad because i like him too now ? )

5 Things I’m Addicted to:

1. Syed Fuad

2. Ed Westwick

3. Books

4. Chase Coy

5. Canon EOS 550D

5 Biggest Celebrity Crushes:

1. Ed Westwick

2. Jared Letto

3. Matt Lanter

4. Hayley Williams

5. Josh Duhamel

5 Songs I Can’t Stop Listening to at the Moment:

1. Your Guardian Angel - The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus ( my fav for years )

2. If The Moon Fell Down Tonight - Chase Coy

3. Chelsea Smile - Bring Me The Horizon

4. I Love The Way You Lie - Eminem Ft. Rihanna

5. Closer To The Edge - 3o Seconds To Mars

5 Favorite TV Shows:

1. Gossip Girls

2. The Good Wife

3. CSI : NY

4. House

5. NCIS

5 Your Dream Future, Job/City/Car/Spouse/Pet:

1. Architect

2. Montreal , Canada ( don't ask me why )

3. Suzuki Swift ( I don't dream an expensive car )

4. Chase Coy ??

5. Rabbits

5 Things that Always Cheer Me Up:

1. Music

2. Syed Fuad

3. Books

4. Chase Coy

5. Sleeping

5 People I Want to Punch in the Face:

1. My Little Sister ( hehehe )

2. Beyonce ( i don't like her sorry )

3. Fake

4. Bitch

5. Random people from school

5 Favorite Actors/Actresses:

1. Ed Westwick

2. Matt Lanter

3. James Marsden

4. Kristen Stewart

5. Jared Letto ( he doesn't act anymore i think )

5 TV Shows You’ve Seen Every Episode of:

1. CSI : NY

2. Gossip Girls

3. Justified

4. The Good Wife

5. Project Runaway

5 Favorite Movies

1. The Last Song

2. Diary of a Wimpy Kid

3. Transformers

4. The Green Mile

5. Pirates Of The Carribean

p.s ; i know it was boring and i got nothing to do .

mustbeperfect .

Name: Alya
Single or Taken: Taken ♥
Sex: Female
Birthday: 10th December
Sign: Sagittarius
Eye colour: Black ?
What are you wearing: t-shirt and grey shorts
Where do you live: Pahang
Righty or lefty: Right

FAVORITE
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Where is your favorite place to shop: MidValley
Color: Black
Number: 7
Boys Name: Adam
Girls Name: Alya ( hahahahahaha silly )
Animal: Bumblebee (:
Month: December
Juice: Ice Lemon Tea :D
Breakfast: Bread and Milk
Favorite cartoon character: emmmmm ?

HAVE YOU EVER
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Given anyone a bath: No
Smoked: Yes
Bungee Jumped: No and I never will x.x
Gone skinny dipping: eerrr (:
Eaten a dog: Noooo
Put your tongue on a frozen pole: No :)
Loved someone so much it made you cry: Yesss
Broken a bone: No again
Played truth or dare: Yeah
Been in a physical fight: Yes
Been in a police car: No

Been in a hot tub: Yes
Swam in the ocean: I think yes
Fallen asleep in school: Hahh ! Many many times (:
Ran away: Yeah
Broken someone’s heart: Probably ?
Cried when someone died: Yeah
Cried in school: Yes too
Fell off your chair: Yes especially when i laugh too much ?
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: Yes , hee
Saved AIM/MSN conversation: No (:

WHAT IS
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Your good luck charm: My Guitar Necklace :D
Best song you ever heard: Your Guardian Angel by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
What’s your room like: Green . Fuck , not me , not at all .
Last thing you ate: Pudding :D
What kind of shampoo do you use: Sunsilk ?
Do you believe in karma: Sometimes .

HAVE YOU HAD
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Chicken pox: Don't remember .
Sore Throat: Of course
Stitches: Yesss
Broken nose: Yes ??

DO YOU
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Believe in love at first sight: Yes
Like picnics: Yes .
Like school: Never !
Would you eat a live hamster for $1,000,000 dollers: Eeeyuuu of couse not , poor hamster .
Who was the last person that called you: My Heartbeat , I love YOU !
What makes you laugh the most: I don't know ?

LAST PERSON
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You yelled at: My Little Sister .
Who broke your heart: Him ?
Who is your loudest friend: Sheda , she had been friend of mine since we were 6 ^^

DO YOU/ARE YOU
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Do you like filling these out: When I have nothing to do :D
Do you wear contacts or glasses: I'm suppose to wear glasses but i never give a damn (:
Do you like yourself: Sometimes ?
Do you get along with your family: Yeah i think ?
Obsessive: Yes x.x
Compulsive: I dont think so .
Anorexic: No I’m a fatty .

FINAL QUESTIONS
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What are you listening to right now: Shake That Bubble by Young And Divine
What did you do yesterday: Reading ( The Last Song )
Hate someone in your family: YES !
What car do you wish you had: Suzuki Swift
Where do you want to get married: In my home sweet home
If you could change anything about yourself, what would it be: Slimmer .
How many remote controls are in your house: Millions .
Are you double jointed: I’m not
Last time you took a bath: A few months ago , i took shower :D
The last movie you saw at the cinemas: Alice in wonderland
Do you like scary or happy movies: Romantic hehe (:
Black or white: Both
Root Beer or Dr.Pepper: I don't like both
Vanilla or chocolate: Vanilla
Silver or Gold: Silver
Diamond or pearl: Pearl
Sunset or Sunrise: Sunset
Sprite or 7up: Sprite
Cats or dogs: Cats for sure
Coffee or tea: tea
Phone or in person: in person is better but I love phone calls .
Are you the oldest, middle, youngest or only child: not the oldest , not in the middle , not the youngest and i'm not the only child D:
Indoor or outdoor: I love outdoors but if the weathers rubbish then indoor ((:

niceguyfinishlast .

lelaki smua sme , annoyed . benci i -.-

p.s ; tk tau ape nk tulis bai .

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korang korang korang , maafkn sy yeee , sy bkannya ske ske je nk halau awk smua , tp awk smua dtg mse sy tgh sbuk sgt sgt DAN rmai tetamu . sy tau sy slah . alah chill lah okayy , dtg rmai rmai lg , pstu bwk sy pg ry okay kwn ? hahhh jgn mrajok lg .

eiiii bosannyeeeee , tk tau nk buat ape lahh , damn itttt !

p.s ; i got that damn answer , weirdo !

herecomesthehappymoment .

selamat hari raya people (: yahh tau gmbar tkde kaitan dgn raya but i wish i have a room full with shoes . thats what i call shoes heaven ^^ okayy ry ni tk tau lah meriah tk . friends smua busy ngan trial tp diorg ckp , ry ry lah enjoy abes abesan sbb nxt year tah kemne lah ktorg ni kn . tkpe lah enjoy okayy :D maaf zahir dan batin

p.s ; people said we should forgive others during 'raya' . em ? i am speechless .

strangersbyday .

spe tk happy lau 1 family ade kt rumahh ? sy pn happy . yg plek nye , my brother lah , dye ade kt umah ke tkde ke sme jee , spnjg ari dduk dlam blik main laptop . ape jadahnye blek . dye tk happy ke ? bongok lahh , kdg kdg je kua tgk tv . bengang . tp bile dye tkde rndu plak hahahaha mngade tk . tp bile smpai mse dye kne blik UM smula , msti dye bebel , ' tknk blek tknk blek' . sy rse sye tau sbb ape dye dduk dlam blik je , maybe sbb ktorg kot . bile dye dduk je kt krusi kt ruang tamu , ktorg ( yg prmpuan ni ) dduk keliling dye , kcau kcau :P nk buat cmne rndu walaawehhhh .

raya is coming uuuyehh . sy akn pkai something yg org lain tk jgke sy akn pkai (: sy tk pnah pkai heels seumur hdup sy err pnah lah kot pkai skali dua tu pn sje test . jd rya ni sy pkai lah . ma sy kte , ' awk tu dah 17 buatlah gye 17 sket , rya kali ni je . lpas rya awk nk buat ape buatlahh ' . tinggg ape mksudnye ituu ? rpenye dye sruh wa pkai heels yg mmg tggi nk mmpus tu ( tkdelah heels sgt pn ) dgn handbag ape smuaa . dye dah beli dah smuaaa tggl nk pkai je tauu . eishh jgn sruh sy pkai makeup sdahh mmg sy mnjerit jerit pg rya nnti .

tk nmpk sgt tggi dye kn ? so , tgk bwh

i compare it with my converse (: blahh imma loser

p.s ; i'm scared because there's only one of you , captain .

partylikearockstar.

you might be more prettier and smarter than me and have friends more than me . and you might hang out with hotter guys than me , and get fucked up more . have more clothes and money than me , and not give a fuck about school , unlike me . you might be carefree , unlike me . but one day , you're going to wish you stayed true to who you were , like me . because you'll have nothing , except memories of fake ass friends who you don't even talk to anymore . SO don't talk shit about me and my lifestyle , because one day , you're going to wish it was YOURS .

p.s ; use your brain , cupcake .

thesesecretswillkillus.

i hate myself and i hate everybody . i don't want to play your stupid game anymore , sexy . let me feel alive again .

closeyoureyes .

auww , bile tgk gmbr ni msti snyum sorang , how cute they are , right ? wtf ? ske ati aku lah nk post ape sbuk lah lu :D mlas nk tulis mcm dlu , change ! tetettenetenet .

strangers .

i don't give you a shit , asshole .

retrovstechno .

ahhhhhhhhhhh . cehh start start dah mrapu tett . tk tau lah nk ckp psal ape . sy sgt mlas mngupdate blog tau ? well , i miss to hangout with my monkeys . oh ya skang kn puasa , diorg tk abes abes ajk pg psar rmdhan . wlaupn dkat tp sy trsgtlah mlas . sorry , i promise i'll go with you guys one day (: hahahaha

ari tu bkak album lme lme with my sisters and mum . my dad tkde so tk dpat join . my twin pn tk blek rmah ( wtf , aku ade twin ) tgk tgk , perghhh smua comel comel je mse kcik , grammmm . tringat jnji ngan watiey nk msuk gmbr mse kcik kt fb , nk scan 1 gmbr . last last jd byk plak kn . ma lah ni ckp ' adk , scan gmbr nie , tk comel ke ? ' hahhh . long plak ' adk , yg ni yg ni , scan je smuaa ' . hehh . gmbr abg lah comel je , jmbu lg . dah bsar , macho tu tk tau lah ade tk . dye mrah kot , ckp malu (: whtever i don't care brother , mmg niat nk malukn kau pn :D

haaa korang msti wondering kn spe twin aku , eyyy prsannye tah tah korang tk ingin pn nk tau kn ? tkpelahh sy tk bgtau okaayy . hehehe

bullshit , ckp bsar sje , nk ni lah nk tu lah , wa tgk tkde ape ape pn ? tkut ke babe ? bkan nk ckp bsar , tp wa mmg tk ske org yg ckp kemain hbat , buat tk pn . wa tgk lu nk pndg wa pn tk brape nk pndg . knp ? bkan lu kte nk blasah wa ke dlu ? ye , mk bpak wa tau psal tu , sbb wa ngan family wa kmceng , mcm mmbr mmbr gtu . wa tk malu ckp kt mk wa psal laki , mslah ape smua tu . mk wa ni kwn baik tau ? wa ngan adk bradik wa share smua crite ngan mk waa tkde 1 pn tggl . lu ade ? hehh untuk stalkers lu tu , wehh jd lah stalker lg babi . baik jd wrtawan je trus . sbuk sgt nk jge tpi kain org , kain kau yg koyak rbak tu tk reti nk jge . sbuk je nk jd semakk . bai , aku tk kcau idup kau tk pyah lah kcau hdup aku kimakk .

sbar alya sbarr . rmai supporters kau kt blakang ni . tkde kwn pn , fmly ade . sbarr . tk gune mrah mrah maki hamun ni smuaa , buang mse . baik diam je . tp diam tk brmkne mngalah . diorg ni bkan reti bhsa pn . trus mnegakkn keadilan dan kebenaran . jgn ptus asa . dga kte rkan rkan yg sntiasa ada tu , buat tk reti je dgn org gile tu . dye kte kau tkde kwn , prove kt dye yg itu tk bnar . sbarlah alya . ade hkmah di sbalik ini . org yg bnar psti akn mnang . ( ecehh wa dah gile yayy yayy , actually ni kte kte my own friend sndiri ) thanks . nilah kwn sejati :D

p.s ; judge me and i'll prove you're wrong . tell me what to do and i'll tell you off . say i'm not worth it and watch were i end up . call me a bitch and i'll show you one . fuck me over and i'll do it to you twice as bad . call me crazy and you really have no idea ((:

critical .

backstabber , i never thought you are such a selfish slut . if one day i really can't stand with you , i'll do everything to make your fucking life worse . keep my words . you can do and say whatever you want cause i don't give a shit . you're nothing in my life . i don't ever care about you so stop talking about me bitch . live in your own world okay ? don't be a mess in my world , pathetic .

the monkeys .

jeng jeng jengg milik siapakah gelaran ini ? inilah monyet monyet sy skrang . sy slalu lpak ngan diorg skrang . awk nk tau , ptg smlam sy lpak ngan diorg uppss 2 drpd the monkeys nie iaitu lonjong dan jga tongga . kami brmain gitar brsma sma . mcm bodoh lah jgak kn . siap main golek golek lg kt tman tu , pnyelah tk malu . lntak tman tu kami yg punyaaa .

biaselah buli mmbuli tu .
brgusti dgn lonjong .
he gave me 1 pnumbuk tepat kt tlinge .
adoiiii brdarah maaa .
tongga pndg je . lme tu bru dye respon and pg amek tisu . smpai je drah pn dah kering ( lmbt nk mmpus )
lonjong cuak yay yay yay .

aummmmmm the other 2 monkeys came join us . ( tonggek dan jongang )
tp tk lme sgt dduk kt pdg tu , sbb the monkeys nie ajk brbuka puasa ( diorg puasa ari ni ) .
biasalah bila the monkeys brkumpul , tk boleh diam . kdai tu jd bsing nk mmpus . yelah kdai diorg .
around 8 pm , nk blek niiiii .
brgurau senda dgn tonggek . dye angkt dye pnya siku lahh , perghhh baik punya kne kt tlinge . tmpt td .
dah brdrah blek . trus tonggek usap usap pale . auwwww cuak kau haaaaa .

i think the monkeys ni mcm kwn baik aku lah . they totally cheering me up (: hahahahaha thanks monkeys .

people do change .

i'm hoping and waiting for a long time . what should i do to turn back the time ?
you've change and i miss the old you .
when i said i won't forgive you , it was a lie .
if you mad when i wrote about him ( memories ) i am sorry .
it just a stupid post . i was playing with my own feeling .

tk tau carut ape , tp just menulis smething yg mrepek .

mood ; miserable but pretend to be okay .

mental disorder .

hanging out with those monkeys make me crazy . they can't stop making noise , not even a minute ! i should thanks them for cheering me up , thanks monkeys !

memories .

dear you , happy birthday :D wish you the best .

i still remember everything about us , about you , our bittersweet memories . do you ? tettt why i can't forget all those old memories ? almost 2 years right ? i hate to see you with other girls especially when she is more more prettier than me . err ckp mcm sy ni cntik je awk kn ? awakk , sy rndu awk , sy rndu kte . sy nk awk smula boleh ? sy tau tk boleh sbb awk ade yg lain . it's okay

i just want you to know that you always be the best partner i ever had . i never regret to own you once . i should never let you go x.x she was so lucky to own you . i wish i can say hye to her and beg her not to hurt you like i always do . i love to hear your voices . i love to hold your hands . i love to fight with you . i love your eyes . i love your skinny body . i love your sexy lips auww . whatever lah kn . go on go on go on .

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY (:

you .

i'm not yours and you're not mine . it is hard for me to accept you back after what you've done to me . i tried to take care of you , your feelings and your everything . have you ever do that to me ? no . stop being a selfish . i'm so tired to think about all this . we still can be friend . but you and i will never be like before . i guess . i'm wondering , do you miss me ? do you miss us ? do you miss our memories together ? do you ever think that you might do something wrong ? do you ? i don't think so . i'll find someone to take over your place . i know you already done it . i am okay right now . no pain , no heartbreak , no tears . i still remember the first day we were fighting about silly things . then no words came out from my mouth . a few weeks later , i know that you are so far far away . i cried . i lost my partner . i was too hurt and i stop trust people for awhile . i'm a mess . i was different now and you will never find the old me . it was nice to be friend of you . i know many people like you adore you . you have everything . unlike me . i like to hang out with you . gossiping . talk about those shit . laughing . cry . now i know that we have change . i choose NOT to hang out with you . i also choose to talk something what we call gossip AFTER i've done it with someone else . i will choose not to talk about anything with you EXCEPT it is about something or someone vital to you . i choose to laugh with you WHEN our friends were around . and last i choose not to cry i mean NEVER cry about you .

that's it . i wrote what i want to write . sorry for the bad language or grammar . i'm in learning progress . fyi , this is not about love , it's friendship .

summersun .

finally , mggu trakhir cuti , off to langkawi for a week ! yessss , ermmm tk mahu diggu oke , merhatkn mindaaaaaa (:

iloveyou5 .

whatever the title is .

her ; ( in public figure ) loveee
him ; ...
her ; i love you syg
him ; errr u dah mkan ?
her ; dah . x.x
him ; knp ?
her ; nothing .

knp nk tkar topik everytime that girl ckp ily ? trutama lau tlis kt cmment or ape ape yg org laen boleh bce . tkut kantoi ?

her ; u , i nk tkar status married to you boleh ?
him ; err tk pyah lah
her ; knp ?
him ; tk pyah lah kecoh kecoh i tk ske , let just us know what happen between us . as long as i love you and you love me .
her ; upset
him ; knp plak ?
her ; i smgt nk buat married tuh
him ; err you i kne kua lah i nk pg kdai bye love you

heishh knpe nk brahsia ? knpe nk bia korang brdua jeh yg tau ? knpe tk leh org laen tau ? i wonder why ?
agknye girl tuh dah tk tahan , thennnn

her ; dear , i rse u ade girl laen lahh
him ; hurm mksud u ? u ckp prmpuan dlam pic tuh ke ?
her ; tk tau lah
him ; she's my teacher lah blah blah blah ( excuses )
her ; ape ape lah , i don't care .
him ; what ?
her ; nk off , i'm not in a good mood , bye .
him ; lahhh , oke bye love you so much . ( they are using IM )

tkde spe crite psal prmpuan tuh kn ? just asking je . btw , org ensem mcm mmat tuh msti rmai scandal kn ? oke oke . lelaki ni byk rahsia .

him ; eh sorylah i kne off ayh i ade lah , dye mcm stalker sket . so bhye . ( yg laen )
her ; hurmm yelah . ( mlas nk lyan )
him ; my dad tuh jnis tgk lpas tuh nnti dye mrah mrah lah . i tk ske .
her ; em oke .
him ; u mrah i ?
her ; tk lah ( dlam ati sbar je lah )
him ; sory lah oke .
her ; oke .
him ; hurm i kt lua nie , nnti i txt u
her ; emm oke
him ; oke i love you syg
her ; hurmmmmmm .
him ; mcm tuh jeh ?
her ; em .
him ; oke lah bye .

then he send a text , wrote ' thnks for the 'nice' fdbck ' . hoooohh ? that girl ignore him cause she was so hurt . aishhh adkah prmpuan ini diprmainkn or what ? tiap tiap diorg meet kot , di public figure plak tuh . tp knpe mmat tuh mcm tk sriyes and tk yakin or tkut tkut ? wtF ? i guess he got another person lah kn . sian awek tuh kn x.x

p.s ; based on the truth .